An Introspection to Wonderland

                     

This past few months, I've been having the same dreams over and over again. It's not consecutive weeks or days but its effin consistent and it's starting to freak me out. I'm not a strong believer of superstitious beliefs nor a fan of any paranormal phenomena but this one, it really weird-ed me out. One can argue that dreams are somewhat an interpretation of fears and desires. An introjection of one's avidity over something or someone. And this would be our Introspection to Wonderland

I have three dreams that I kept on seeing. A spider, Soldier and cracked teeth. Unlike Alice in Wonderland, She had a progressive and continuous dream during her childhood. Joseph (The dreamer) on the other hand have surreal philosophical dreams about the future. In my case, there's a certain scenarios in every dream that contains a spider, soldier and cracked teeth. A glimpse lasting for about a minute. Like a teaser, a snippet or something.

My dreams are so bizarre that it piqued my curiosity -- and so I researched about the 'possible' interpretation of my dreams. Annotate in a scientific manner through Oneirology. Charot!

Spider

In my dream, I was being chased by a big spider.

According to Huffingtonpost, spiders are associated with manipulation. Depending on the rest of the dream, the spider may indicate that the dreamer is being manipulated or that the dreamer is a manipulator. I mentioned this to my friend R. 

"Eh bat ganun, naisip ko wala naman nagma-manipulate sakin or wala naman ako mina-manipulate?" I asked R. 

"Baka family mo..." R answered

For a moment I was silent. Then I realized, There's a huge percentage that I am being manipulated by my family. You see, I took up nursing because my mother wants it not because I want it and up until now... now that I already graduated and decided not to pursue it, I still am having troubles fixing and deciding what I really want in my life. What I mean is, Nahihirapan akong ayusin ang buhay ko base sa kung ano ang gusto kong maging forever. Siyempre wala naman akong balak mag stay dito sa company na to (BPO) pero nahihirapan akong tuparin ang gusto ko dahil--- mahirap. I already wasted four years of my life. Gusto ko sana mag aral uli or mag masteral kaya lang may mga bagay na hindi ko pa kayang gawin or hindi ko pa pwedeng gawin because at this moment I was stuck. So, yes! I was being manipulated. Medyo malabo ang explanation ko kasi it deserves another blog entry. 

Soldier

In my dream, I was a solider somewhere in middle east in a deserted area. The scene was I'm in a war. On the battle ground itself fighting for something I don't know. 

Well, I do have this lunatic fantasy of being a soldier but that's not enough reason for me to have this kind of dream consistently right? So I dig deeper.

Real meaning of dreams said if not all but most of war dream means there is some form of conflict in your waking life whether it be internal conflict within your own mind or external conflict. There could be parts of yourself that are in conflict with each other. Hmmm... maybe I'm in conflict with myself because of until now, at this age I still don't know what I wanted to be. I'm 25 and still I can't make up my mind if I wanted to be a surgeon, a psychologist, an event organizer or a mother of three. Char!

Cracked Teeth

In my dream, when I was about to bite something; suddenly my tooth's falling apart one by one.

In our culture, ang ibig sabihin daw nito ay may mamamatay sa pamilya or relatives mo. Eh duh! ilang beses ko na nga napapanaginipan wala naman namamatay. So i'd go for more scientific explanation about this. The more acceptable one.

Pursuant to teethfallingoutdream, Broken teeth in a dream are a representation of disruptive challenges and stress. They gave six primary meanings of a broken teeth in a dream.

1. Instability and lack of balance.
2. Issues with reliability and trust
3. Guilt or concern over broken promises
4. Emotional pain, fear of loss
5. Price paid for costly compromises
6. Invitation to look at your current course of action, path.

Need I say more?

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Did you see the connection of the three dreams? Galing noh? Human behaviors never fail to amuse and fascinate me in a very strange and unusual scheme.

So there, it all boils down within Me. My inner self. My id, ego and superego.