"Why do you think he would do that?"
King said while we were lying on R's bed.
The night was calm. I can feel the cold breeze of rainy season. The night was perfect for a cup of coffee, a stick of cigarette and a mellow conversation with friends that would fill the empty walls of the house as the cold outside mists the windows.
I have nothing to do at home so I asked R if I can come over. he said yes and asked me why. "I couldn't get to sleep" I said. And so I went-- and besides I was really bored, like bored to hell at home. kulang na lang mag cross stitch ako ng last supper at mag gantsilyo ng sampung sweater. Kesa naman sa magka bed sore ako at dumikit na yung balat ko sa kama at mamuti ang mga mata kaka browse sa twitter -- I went to a friend's house.
When I was there, I called King to come as well. Oh di ba kung makapag-aya kala mo bahay ko lang.
"Si Max na naman ba yan?" I asked back while staring at the ceiling.
R was already sleeping by the time King started to open up (again) about Max.
"I really don't understand why?" King said
"What is it exactly he did that you don't understand?" I replied
"Everything! Okay, ganito kasi..." King said while he lay on his side looking at me all excited.
"Last week, Max and I went to O bar. So we were inside na tapos ang ano lang niya sakin.. He kept on pushing me to hook up with other guys" He added.
"Tapos siyempre naman girl di ba nainis ako. Tapos siya naman nakikipag flirt din sa ibang guys. Bakit ganun? So nagalit ako sa kanya"
"Bakit ka nagalit?"
King's not saying anything. Humiga siya ulit at nakatulala sa ceiling.
"What does it mean?" Asked King
"It means na friends na lang talaga kayo. That's what friends do pag nagba-bar sila right? Tayo pag nag O-Obar tayo ganyan tayo di ba?"
You see, This is King's first experience on dating. As in ever! He doesn't know anything about dating. Okay, bigyan ko nga muna kayo ng glimpse kung ano nangyari sa kanila. King met Max in Obar. They chatted and felt comfortable with each other, Exchanged numbers and said their goodbyes. Several days after, Max asked King for a date. King said yes nonchalantly. They went on a couple of dates or so. Movies, Coffee, Books are their thing.
"I was not even attracted to him. I don't even like him at first.... you know what I'm saying right?" He said. "But things have changed. I don't know what happened but all of a sudden bigla na lang siyang naging...."
"Naging cold, aloof, detached, indifferent, stoic, incurious..."
"OA ng adjectives mo ah" I teased him.
"Yun ang hindi ko maintindihan. Bakit bigla na lang siya naging ganun? Kung kelan naman I was falling for him, siya naman tong biglang naging cold" King said with loneliness in his eyes.
"Hhhmmm... May nangyari na ba sa inyo?" I asked King looking at him expectantly.
We were silent for a moment.
"Bakla! Ano?! may nangyari na ba sa inyo?"
"Ah kaya! Kasi minsan tayong mga bakla or even heterosexuals, sometimes we mistakenly interchanged love from lust and lust from love. Kaya siguro ganun bigla na lang siya naging cold kasi may nangyari na sa inyo. Baka yun lang talaga ang gusto niya." I explained.
"Eh bakit naman after namin mag sex lumalabas labas pa din kami?" King said trying to be defensive and denial. Naku! baklang to! Para tuloy akong may anak na ginagabayan sa paglalakad.
"Honestly.. I don't know. At lahat ng mga sasabihin ko at sinabi sayo are all just theories. I don't know Max personally. I haven't even seen him in person. My only badge is my personal experience and what I think is, everything ended when you had sex with him"
King's still not saying anything
"Okay. look! Maybe the reason why he still go out with you after sleeping with him is becasue...." I explained to him while examining his facial expression. He looks innocent and trying to pull his hair out while waiting for my account.
"Maybe becasue... out of respect. Courtsey ganyan." I exclaimed.
"Courtsey?" He asked
"Oo! Courtsey. Kasi you guys have been going out na rin for a while kaya siguro hindi agad siya nawala after niyo magsex. para hindi rin mahalata na yun lang ang gusto niya sayo. He's protecting his image." I replied.
I exactly know what he's going through and I know what it felt like. But I have no choice but to blurt it out to him. I don't want him wasting his time figuring out what could be Max's reasons for being so cold to him, and besides.. I maybe right. Kadalasan ganun naman talaga ang rason kapag bigla na lang nawawala ang communication. Sex lang talaga ang habol.
"I think yang Max na yan masyadong pa-fall-- pahabol. Douchebag"
"Eh bakit nung una okay naman kami? Parang nanliligaw nga eh." He asked
"Kasi nga may gusto siyang makuha sayo. Gusto niya ng sex.. and maybe that's his way of getting it. Instead of being straight forward about his intentions to you-- he chose to be adorable and not a horndog. You get my point?" I proclaim.
At this time, I can really feel King's somber expression
"Alam mo ba kung ano ang number one rule sa dating? You should not expect anything. Just go with the flow. Live by the present. Don't think of the future. Na magiging kayo. Basta enjoy mo lang" I added.
* * *
Right now, King's still confused and trying to find his way out of this hoops and loops of Max's love game. Recently lang we saw Max sa white party sa Obar. He hugged King --then again.. He went gaga over him.
Whatever your going through.. Nandito lang kaming mga friends mo. Just don't do something silly or stupid.
Yes! it is destined.